This morning I did what I usually do. I opened my eyes, rolled over a few times, reached out for Lucy, and eventually picked up my phone. I headed to Facebook (as I too often do), and my thumb did what it does so well, and I started scrolling. I was only two minutes in … Continue reading National Sibling Day
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Happy Birthday, bro
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday my Jakey, Happy Birthday to you. Your first birthday in heaven. The first birthday since the day you were born that I don't get to sing to you. I woke up this morning missing you more than I ever have. The hole in my heart … Continue reading Happy Birthday, bro
60 Days
Two months. Two months since I touched your face. Two months since I said I love you to the back of your head as you walked into moms house. I wish I knew the exact time. That precise last minute and image is so hazy now, all mixed up with the sadness. Some days you're all … Continue reading 60 Days
World Suicide Prevention Day
It's been 16 days since I've hugged you. 16 days of grief. 16 days of pure love. I woke up this morning not knowing how to approach today. I still don't, if we're being honest. I'm still navigating my way through each minute I'm awake with a heart that is so raw it sits uncomfortably … Continue reading World Suicide Prevention Day
With Jake's Heart 