Dear Jake, Today is a hard day to describe, but then again, I bet you know that. It feels like both 9 minutes and 9 years since my heart has had the privilege of beating in sync with yours. The overwhelming wave of trauma, grief, and sadness that usually laps at my feet, ebbing and … Continue reading A Year of Love and Loss
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National Sibling Day
This morning I did what I usually do. I opened my eyes, rolled over a few times, reached out for Lucy, and eventually picked up my phone. I headed to Facebook (as I too often do), and my thumb did what it does so well, and I started scrolling. I was only two minutes in … Continue reading National Sibling Day
Happy Birthday, bro
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday my Jakey, Happy Birthday to you. Your first birthday in heaven. The first birthday since the day you were born that I don't get to sing to you. I woke up this morning missing you more than I ever have. The hole in my heart … Continue reading Happy Birthday, bro
Let’s Talk
It's been five months since I've kissed your face. Five months since that last time I would ever hold you close to my heart. I got married without you in October. I walked down that aisle and until I got to my beautiful Ju the only face I could see was yours. We faced … Continue reading Let’s Talk
60 Days
Two months. Two months since I touched your face. Two months since I said I love you to the back of your head as you walked into moms house. I wish I knew the exact time. That precise last minute and image is so hazy now, all mixed up with the sadness. Some days you're all … Continue reading 60 Days
With Jake's Heart 