If I had known that it was goodbye, I would have bucked against the passing of time on that muggy August evening. I would have bloodied my hands pulling on the rope of time, so desperate to slow it all down. We would have taken the long way home, would have spoken our love with … Continue reading Hello/Goodbye
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Golden Boy
Somehow it is January 27th again and you should be turning 27. You should be about to go for another spin around the sun we barely see in the dead of winter. You should be sleeping in and mom should be making you another birthday cake and you'd only eat all of it if it … Continue reading Golden Boy
Suicide Prevention Day
September 10th, 2016 was the day I created this blog. It's hard to grasp how much has changed since then. It's even harder to grasp how much hasn't changed since then. I remember sitting on a bed that is no longer mine in a room that never felt like home but somehow had all my … Continue reading Suicide Prevention Day
2 years
How can two years feel like an eternity and 10 minutes all at once? We added numbers and figures to time thousands of years ago to orient ourselves in the space we occupy. Why then, does time feel like the most disorienting thing in my world. Why then, does time feel like a trap I … Continue reading 2 years
World Suicide Prevention Day
It's been 16 days since I've hugged you. 16 days of grief. 16 days of pure love. I woke up this morning not knowing how to approach today. I still don't, if we're being honest. I'm still navigating my way through each minute I'm awake with a heart that is so raw it sits uncomfortably … Continue reading World Suicide Prevention Day
With Jake's Heart 